"the world was on fire

no one could save me but you.
strange what desire will make foolish people do,
i never dreamed that i'd meet somebody like you,
and i never dreamed that i'd lose somebody like you."
giant drag - wicked game (click to listen to the cover)

ow. let's just say my tooth is killing. i've never had a filling before, so i didn't know what to expect, so me and rach (my little sister) went in and she numbed rachs mouth first. next it was my turn, i didn't know she was going to so when i saw the needle i was thinking, right okay fair enough, don't mind needles, i was just praying my mouth didn't go all dodgey on one side/that i'd be able to talk normally because of getting on the bus haha. so yeah she did that and then rach was back in the seat and i was watching. took about 10 minutes, or atleast it felt like that, for her to do rachs then it was my turn, it didn't hurt at all, however i didn't appreciate the woman with the suction thingy nearly sucking up my cheek. that was a strange feeling. but yeah it was done and i thought, this isn't actually bad, nothing to be bothered about, got home and 2 hours later the numbing stuff had worn off. :l pain set in. it's been hurting for atleast 3-4 hours now. it was hard to stay calm for rach when i was so nervous, but i managed and she didn't shed a tear this time :]

meh. oh well. :[!

i hope everyone is good and that their teeth are all in good shape, if not, i feel for you.

-victoria XX

"I've hardly been outside my room in days,

'Cause I don't feel that I deserve the sunshine's rays.
The darkness helped until the whiskey wore away,
And it was then I realised the conscience never fades.
When you're young you have this image of your life,
That you'll be scrupulous and one day even make a wife.
And you make boundaries you'd never dream to cross,
And if you happen to, you wake completely lost."
missy higgins - the special two

strange. i have the dentist today. i'm quite scared for a change, i usually love it, but now i have a new dentist and i have to have my first ever filling. she said it was only a little one but i'm nervous. urgh. it's worse because it'll just be me and my younger sister, although she's 11, she hates the dentist and she ended up having some sort of crying thing last time, so i'm worried that's going to happen again. ahrjhgjfsd!! :(

i wish i was one of those people that had a way with words, the people that can write anything and the people that write books that you can't put down and wish you were a character in, or the people that write beautiful lyrics that you can relate too when you feel in a certain way. i mean, i do write the odd little poem, lyrics and so on but nothing that would impress people. i've never been a person that people are drawn to because of a certain thing about them. i'll just keep dreaming :D

i had a real weird dream last night, i can't even remember it properly now because my head is feeling heavy and hurting. atleast i have a cuppa tea. i think i'll go and make some toast in a minute and try thinking of stuff to take my mind off the dentist. hmmm. i hope everyones good and all, and yeah, i'll blog later after i've been through to the dentist :(

love, victoria XX