"I've hardly been outside my room in days,

'Cause I don't feel that I deserve the sunshine's rays.
The darkness helped until the whiskey wore away,
And it was then I realised the conscience never fades.
When you're young you have this image of your life,
That you'll be scrupulous and one day even make a wife.
And you make boundaries you'd never dream to cross,
And if you happen to, you wake completely lost."
missy higgins - the special two

strange. i have the dentist today. i'm quite scared for a change, i usually love it, but now i have a new dentist and i have to have my first ever filling. she said it was only a little one but i'm nervous. urgh. it's worse because it'll just be me and my younger sister, although she's 11, she hates the dentist and she ended up having some sort of crying thing last time, so i'm worried that's going to happen again. ahrjhgjfsd!! :(

i wish i was one of those people that had a way with words, the people that can write anything and the people that write books that you can't put down and wish you were a character in, or the people that write beautiful lyrics that you can relate too when you feel in a certain way. i mean, i do write the odd little poem, lyrics and so on but nothing that would impress people. i've never been a person that people are drawn to because of a certain thing about them. i'll just keep dreaming :D

i had a real weird dream last night, i can't even remember it properly now because my head is feeling heavy and hurting. atleast i have a cuppa tea. i think i'll go and make some toast in a minute and try thinking of stuff to take my mind off the dentist. hmmm. i hope everyones good and all, and yeah, i'll blog later after i've been through to the dentist :(

love, victoria XX