an update of some sort.

it's been a while.

i'll update in photos.

day 100 - 19th february



day 101 - 20th february



day 102 - 21st february



day 103 - 22nd february



also from the 22nd,



day 104 - 23rd february



and even more from one of the best days of my life, i miss the spinto band,









day 105 - 24th february



just for a joke,



day 106 - 25th february



day 107 - 25th february



day 108 - 26th february



then i got tagged and had to take a photo without getting changed/doing my hair or editing it,



day 109 - 27th february



and todays photo is still being planned. :( i don't really like any of the photos above they lack creativity and stuff. i feel weird. i have work to do and interviews to edit, so i think i'm going to go get ready, do todays photo and then do some work, then some editing. meh.

"but after conception your body lay cold,

and withered through autumn and you found yourself old
can you tell me why you have been so sad?"
death of interior designer - death cab for cutie

today was weird but nice. the atmosphere in stockport was horrible, couple everywhere and stuff and all valentines stuff, which doesn't bother me much, but the atmosphere was so, so strange and weird and yeah. i looked like i'd been stood up when waiting for sheridan, haaa. i think people actually thought i had been, either that or they were giving me sympathetic looks for another reason i'm not yet aware of. so anyway, today we met with will went in a few shops, then will parted and we remembered, i say we, sheridan remembered i needed cake decorating stuff so we went to asda to get some stuff. so then we went back to mine, watched the rest of hitch and made some chocolate chip biscuits. yum.

yesterday i had teh urge to bake a cake. so i made too, using food colouring made one pink and one blue. made icing for the pink one today so my sister charlotte put that on it and my little sisters decorated it. i'll decorate the blue one tomorrow i think.

mixtures.


dinosaur cake !!!!!


sheridans biscuits.


my biscuits.


so yeah i'm gonna stop now before i do rants about stupid stuff that no one wants to read about.

hope your all good!!

lots of love, victoria xxx

"if you got no kind words to say,

you should say nothing more at all,
if you got no kind words to say,
you should say nothing more at all,
if you got no kind words to say,
you should say nothing more at all."
the maccabees - no kind words

I don't know what i'd do without music. I know a lot of people say that, but i truly do mean it.
These 3 bands have had a really big influence on me: Boy Kill Boy, The Spinto Band and The Maccabees. I'm not sure what i'd do without their music. I mean, when i'm sad i listen to them, when i'm happy i listen to the, when i'm excited i listen to them, when i'm confused i listen to them. As you can see, a pattern is forming, no matter how i feel, i always listen to music. ALWAYS.

i'm not sure what i'm going to do without boy kill boy anymore. they were the first band i properly loved and would always go and see. i know a lot of people aren't fans of them so they when i mention them being my favourite band, i get a mix of reactions. that annoys me. i might not like their favourite band, but i don't slag them off when they mention them. it's weird thinking i wont see pete, kev, chris or shaz again. makes me feel sad. :(

also, through these bands, and others, i've met some amazing people. whether it's over forums, at gigs, or just randomly, and i don't think they realise how grateful i am for this. i've met so many people that are in my life now, and that i don't know what i'd do without, thanks to them. i have songs that have memories attached to them and this means even more to me, being able to remember things because of a song and being able to use lyrics to describe how i feel, i'm not good at that so it's nice to have something to relate too. music is a big part of my life and always will be.

i'm going to stop wittering on now, as it's making me sad haha! i hope everyones good.

lots of love, victoria!x

"i walk the boards alone tonight and try to fill this empty space inside my chest

i took atlantic home tonight and every neon light, and sign, spelt out your name
and every morning that i wake
i make a point to check the date incase i slept an extra day
i've crossed so many numbers out
but every time i count them there are so much more"
dave melillo - sam's song

So i've not blogged properly for a good few days. nothing amazing has been happening. everything is just same old and dull to be honest. i'm slowly getting myself into a routine which is a good thing because i get stuff done easier now. well, within reason.

hmmmm. i have work to do but well, work is never appealing. ever. i've done some already anyway, i just need to finish this last part. i'll give you a quick summary of the last few days.

friday i didn't do anything exciting as per. infact i don't even remember what i did...hmmm.

yesterday i went into stockport and manchester with sheridan. we both had to get some photos printed for our portfolios, i got 36 done for £9.90. i think there's 36, i may have miscounted. now i need to actually put my portfolio together. meh. but yeah, we went put sorted that out, went into superdrug to see will, didn't cause he was on till, went into town, sheridan bought some trousers and a skirt and then i went and got my sister, charlottes camera sorted and then into the art cafe for a little tea drinking/relaxing/telling of the bad jokes time. it was nice. then we went back into stockport picked up our prints and both went our serperate ways. oh my god. i've also been learning if i were a boy by beyoncé on keyboard. it's so fun! and i learnt the chorus of rihannas disturbia. easypeasy that chorus ahah.

today i haven't done much, it's been a nice day really, i've just relaxed. although when i was doing my 365 photo, it started to snow!! i love snow but it meant i had to put a tea towel over my camera and i was also running in and out drinking some of my tea to try and keep warm. not fun. it's like 3'c or something according too bbc weather forecast. nice eh? ha. so now i'm doing bits of my history, the odd job for my mum and listening to music. hmmmm, so much random stuff in my head right now!

so i'm going to do some more work now so i can relax for the rest of tonight. my deadlines thursday. wish me luck.

love, victoria.

hmmmmm

Dear February, Be nice to me please. Love, Victoria.

X

"let me hold you for the last time,

it's the last chance to feel again,
but you broke me now i can't feel anything...
when i love you,
it's so untrue,
i can't even convince myself,
when i'm speaking,
it's the voice of someone else."
james morrison - broken strings

i've been listening to airport by the spinto band since sunday, when lisa sent it me (thanksthankss!!!) on repeat, to and from school and then again later on when i'm sat messing on the computer. i can't stop listening to it at all, it makes me excited and sad all at once! the thought of seeing the spinto band again in less than a month makes me like o.o It's not sunk in properly yet, i'm so freakin' excited!

hmmm. i've been writing this blog for abotu 30 minutes now, i stopped whilst i was looking at photos...so back to this blog anyway.

i've just been reading some postsecrets that are on flickr. funnily enough a lot link to people not being able to say what they want to someone and always regretting it. or doing something wrong and wishing they could go back. it's sad how we can't be honest to the people that mean most to us when we really need to be. but then i guess that's what some people do to you, make it hard for you too tell them how you feel honestly. it does make me wonder though, as you get older does it become easier for you to be more honest? or is it easier to hide things from people or lie to people? and as for doing things wrong and wishing you could go back, i think we're meant to have times like that because if your in the same situation again, you know this time that you'll regret it in the future, we need to learn more from our mistakes instead of just regretting them and wondering what it'd be like if you hadn't done/said that...(i do that all the time but i think now i'm learning from it, finally)

I think i've blabbered on enough for tonight. i feel sorry for anyone that reads my blogs, sometimes i just have to rant on here because if not it'll all be floating round my head for a while and it'll mean more day dreaming for me. i can't wait for it to be light again for longer.

i hope everyones good and that your all taking care of yourselves!

love, victoria

"i tried to do handstands for you,

i tried to do handstands for you,
everytime i fell on you,
yeah everytime i fell,
i tried to do handstands for you,
but everytime i fell for you,
i'm permanently black and blue,
permanently blue for you"
chairlift - bruises

still feeling gooooooooooooooooood
but very sleepy.
i'm going to go too bed soon so i'm not going to update properly, i will tomorrow though.

lots of love, victoria XXXX

"so many destination faces going to so many places,

where the weather is much better,
and the food is so much cheaper.
well i help her with her baggage for her baggage is so heavy,
i hear the plane is ready by the gateway to take my love away.
and i can't believe that she really wants to leave me and it's getting me so,
it getting me so..."
the spinto band - airport (cover, click to listen, i've had it on repeat :D)

i feel good today. i had 2 nice phone calls which is always a bonus.
i'm so sleepy, i'm not sure how i'm going to get up tomorrow. hmmmm. i did a cinderella jigsaw before, it was really cool, i want to do some more. anyone got some jigsaws they can lend me? i forgot how much i liked them lol. i even got to see some stars earlier. i love stars.

i'm so excited for this year. (it's took me 25 days to realise that this year could be amazing if i do certain things)

hearts an fly is going to get somewhere, we're going to take over the world. (well maybe not but the schofield sisters will take over the world at some point and in some way!)
the leftover sessions - we will definately take over some part of the music related world. we have interviews coming up with quite a few people which excites me a hell of a lot. seriously.
projects - i'm going to plan ahead for my photos and stuff. i'm not happy with how there turning out so the only way to make sure i am is by planning.
i need to make a timetable to follow, if not i just do nothing. i refuse to do nothing, i have to many ideas to do nothing.


i am feeling great. (I wont be saying that tomorrow morning.)

love, victoria. xxxxxxxxx



p.s dear world, i am in love with you. lots of love, me.

"i know you were not new,

it looked like may in june,
all the same i miss you,
today has been okay,
today has been okay."
emiliana torrini - today has been okay

todays photo.



looks better bigger!

that top i have on was my mums boyfriends...he got given it like 5 years ago and when she was cleaning out their wardrobe she found it and gave it me...it's really big...extremely big.

hope everyones good, i'll update properly tomorrow! xx

"the world was on fire

no one could save me but you.
strange what desire will make foolish people do,
i never dreamed that i'd meet somebody like you,
and i never dreamed that i'd lose somebody like you."
giant drag - wicked game (click to listen to the cover)

ow. let's just say my tooth is killing. i've never had a filling before, so i didn't know what to expect, so me and rach (my little sister) went in and she numbed rachs mouth first. next it was my turn, i didn't know she was going to so when i saw the needle i was thinking, right okay fair enough, don't mind needles, i was just praying my mouth didn't go all dodgey on one side/that i'd be able to talk normally because of getting on the bus haha. so yeah she did that and then rach was back in the seat and i was watching. took about 10 minutes, or atleast it felt like that, for her to do rachs then it was my turn, it didn't hurt at all, however i didn't appreciate the woman with the suction thingy nearly sucking up my cheek. that was a strange feeling. but yeah it was done and i thought, this isn't actually bad, nothing to be bothered about, got home and 2 hours later the numbing stuff had worn off. :l pain set in. it's been hurting for atleast 3-4 hours now. it was hard to stay calm for rach when i was so nervous, but i managed and she didn't shed a tear this time :]

meh. oh well. :[!

i hope everyone is good and that their teeth are all in good shape, if not, i feel for you.

-victoria XX

"I've hardly been outside my room in days,

'Cause I don't feel that I deserve the sunshine's rays.
The darkness helped until the whiskey wore away,
And it was then I realised the conscience never fades.
When you're young you have this image of your life,
That you'll be scrupulous and one day even make a wife.
And you make boundaries you'd never dream to cross,
And if you happen to, you wake completely lost."
missy higgins - the special two

strange. i have the dentist today. i'm quite scared for a change, i usually love it, but now i have a new dentist and i have to have my first ever filling. she said it was only a little one but i'm nervous. urgh. it's worse because it'll just be me and my younger sister, although she's 11, she hates the dentist and she ended up having some sort of crying thing last time, so i'm worried that's going to happen again. ahrjhgjfsd!! :(

i wish i was one of those people that had a way with words, the people that can write anything and the people that write books that you can't put down and wish you were a character in, or the people that write beautiful lyrics that you can relate too when you feel in a certain way. i mean, i do write the odd little poem, lyrics and so on but nothing that would impress people. i've never been a person that people are drawn to because of a certain thing about them. i'll just keep dreaming :D

i had a real weird dream last night, i can't even remember it properly now because my head is feeling heavy and hurting. atleast i have a cuppa tea. i think i'll go and make some toast in a minute and try thinking of stuff to take my mind off the dentist. hmmm. i hope everyones good and all, and yeah, i'll blog later after i've been through to the dentist :(

love, victoria XX

f a i l.

today i got my mock results. lol. oh god. they were SO bad, but i'm hoping that will give me the kick up the ass i needed to get my ass into gear and revising and all. i hate asking for help in lessons but now i am going to because if not i'll just do shit.
you may aswell know my shitty results haha...

maths - E (my bad)
music - D
modern history - D
english - C
french - C
catering - C
i think thats it, i didn't get a science one it was that bad haha. my bad. :(


oh well now i'm more determined.

i'm sure i've scrubbed some skin off trying to get that face paint off lol. it hurt! my skin is still stinging now. damn. oh well :]

-victoria (i'll blog properly tomorrow, i'm hooked on hana yori dango, for the second time!)



here's another version of me looking very oriental.

ALSO! do me a favour? Check my friend out, he's new to flickr but he is an amazing artist so go look at his stuff. seriously it's amazing and unique. (And believe me, when i say unique, i mean it.) or his blog

"sometimes i feel so down and out

like emotion thats been captured in a maze,
i had my ups and downs trials and tribulations,
i overcome it day by day,
feeling good and almost powerful
a new me, thats what i'm looking for."
sugababes - stronger

i didn't get a chance to update yesterday due to extreme tiredness after i got back, so i'll blog about yesterday now!

16/01/2009

so i got back a science result for my gcse, we had to do 6 exams throughout year 10 and a piece of coursework, so i managed to get a C overall. so that's now 1 gcse done which is cool. i hate science though...I also got my maths re-sits back, i had 2 C's and i've gone up to a B on one...i'm happy with that, a bit annoyed with that c staying though, it obviously doesn't wat to leave, however it does mean i can "1 2 3, it's easy as a b c" and all that. or i can even be witty and msn like and say "cba", Hilarious, i know.

So after that me and charlotte went to my dad and francescas for the chicken curry night, so when we got there we had a drink of tea told them about interviews we have coming up with bands and then we left it cooking and went and watched a film called "shrooms" It was crap. It wasn't actually a good film anyway but it made me jump, it was quite creepy! The twist was sick too ahaha. Oh well. So yeah after that we watched some flight of the conchords and then the chicken curry was done...it was around 11 at this point i think...it was so so so so good though, it was worth the wait, amazingly nice curry. so whilst we were eating we decided to watch celeb big brother, me and charlotte don't really watch it but we were hoping that liberty x bitch would be voted out. She wasn't. Gutted.

That's about it for yesterday, it was nice and all :] i really enjoyed it a lot and we're doing a mexican night next time, wooo! exciting stuff :D so now onto todays post...

so me and sheridan went into town to do some photos for our portfolios...it didn't really happen, we met with coxy so he could be in a couple of photos and then we were meant to do some more but well, that didn't happen. We went into the craft centre, coxy hadn't been in before so we though it'd be cool, we ended up talking to a guy, kyle, it was really weird but cool. So he ended up coming to the art cafe (aka nexus) and having a drink with us and spending a couple of hours listening to us talk shit. turns out he's a second year at manchester uni doing photography so that's cool. it's always nice to find new people with the same hobby and all that jazz.

I wish i was confident enough to talk to people i didn't know! I hate how if i don't know someone a lot i can't talk a lot around them because i worry people will take it the wrong way because they don't understand i'm joking or being sarcastic...hmmm, oh well. my confidence is getting a little better as the weeks go by i think, well i hope anyway! i want to make more new friends and all. it's nice to meet aand talk to new people that are different in ways...yeah. cool.

i'm going to stop rambling on. i'm sleepy. but not. i really want to watch a film, i might go and watch one, hmmm...

hope your all alright!

-victoria XX

todays photo is poo.


and yesterdays is not worth posting. X

"oh, and when will your hand find itself in mine?

and though i don't know your real name,
your real age, or your shoe size,
i will leave this bedroom chair,
and this keyboard behind...
and i will love you in reality and dreams"
second lover - noah and the whale

i failed chemistry, it was hard. i can tell i have. but oh well. i can re-sit in june, even though i really don't want to. :(

i get maths re-sit results tomorrow! i'm excited but not, i hope they actually come tomorrow i'll be so annoyed if we have to wait longer. i want to know if i've done better or not...i hope i've done okay!

i'm going to have to watch hana yori dango (boys over flowers) again, i loved that, it's sad they didn't do a lot of episodes, but if they had it'd of been ruined i guess.

I don't really have much else to say to be honest, i'm pretty tired as per usual. oh well, curry night tomorrow, yay! :D

- victoria xxx

it will all make sense

so i decided to start a blog up of my own. i've decided it will be like the scrapbook of my days, it'll be nice to have somewhere to write about whatever i want, quote lyrics, post photos and stuff, yeah. i'm always afraid of forgetting things that have happened so if i blog them once they've happened, i can read over them and remember things that i will eventually forget at some point no doubt...

it's strange really...i was thinking the other day, if you want to live until your about 80, as soon as you hit 20, that's 1/4 of your life, gone. and what do you have to show for it? regrets? i remember reading somewhere, "don't regret what you do, regret what you don't" and i truly think that's right. lifes about living, making friends, losing friends, falling in love, falling out of love, making mistakes, having good times, having bad times, laughing, doing things wrong, having problems, solving problems, not understanding, making an impression, going over and over memories of certain days/times...and so much more.

i wish i could remember this more as it'd probably stop me feeling so weird at times. sometimes, i hate the fact i get into books so much and end up wishing i was one of the characters, but then i don't at times, i like dreaming about stuff that might never happen to me, i like being able to think over little things to myself, even if it does involve being strange enough to wish i was a book character. sometimes i feel like i don't know what direction my life is going in, and sometimes it bothers me, in a way i'd like to know what lifes gonna throw at me, but i also like suprises, things i don't expect happening.

i'm not really sure what else i can say really, but i think i'll update this pretty much every day this time, because like i said up there, i'm afraid of forgetting the little things and stuff like that.

- love victoria XX

P.s i'm doing a selfportrait a day for a year, so i'll post my picture from that day at the end of every blog, up until i finish, and probably post a lot of other pictures too!! (i'm on day 61 by the way.)