"if you got no kind words to say,

you should say nothing more at all,
if you got no kind words to say,
you should say nothing more at all,
if you got no kind words to say,
you should say nothing more at all."
the maccabees - no kind words

I don't know what i'd do without music. I know a lot of people say that, but i truly do mean it.
These 3 bands have had a really big influence on me: Boy Kill Boy, The Spinto Band and The Maccabees. I'm not sure what i'd do without their music. I mean, when i'm sad i listen to them, when i'm happy i listen to the, when i'm excited i listen to them, when i'm confused i listen to them. As you can see, a pattern is forming, no matter how i feel, i always listen to music. ALWAYS.

i'm not sure what i'm going to do without boy kill boy anymore. they were the first band i properly loved and would always go and see. i know a lot of people aren't fans of them so they when i mention them being my favourite band, i get a mix of reactions. that annoys me. i might not like their favourite band, but i don't slag them off when they mention them. it's weird thinking i wont see pete, kev, chris or shaz again. makes me feel sad. :(

also, through these bands, and others, i've met some amazing people. whether it's over forums, at gigs, or just randomly, and i don't think they realise how grateful i am for this. i've met so many people that are in my life now, and that i don't know what i'd do without, thanks to them. i have songs that have memories attached to them and this means even more to me, being able to remember things because of a song and being able to use lyrics to describe how i feel, i'm not good at that so it's nice to have something to relate too. music is a big part of my life and always will be.

i'm going to stop wittering on now, as it's making me sad haha! i hope everyones good.

lots of love, victoria!x

"so many destination faces going to so many places,

where the weather is much better,
and the food is so much cheaper.
well i help her with her baggage for her baggage is so heavy,
i hear the plane is ready by the gateway to take my love away.
and i can't believe that she really wants to leave me and it's getting me so,
it getting me so..."
the spinto band - airport (cover, click to listen, i've had it on repeat :D)

i feel good today. i had 2 nice phone calls which is always a bonus.
i'm so sleepy, i'm not sure how i'm going to get up tomorrow. hmmmm. i did a cinderella jigsaw before, it was really cool, i want to do some more. anyone got some jigsaws they can lend me? i forgot how much i liked them lol. i even got to see some stars earlier. i love stars.

i'm so excited for this year. (it's took me 25 days to realise that this year could be amazing if i do certain things)

hearts an fly is going to get somewhere, we're going to take over the world. (well maybe not but the schofield sisters will take over the world at some point and in some way!)
the leftover sessions - we will definately take over some part of the music related world. we have interviews coming up with quite a few people which excites me a hell of a lot. seriously.
projects - i'm going to plan ahead for my photos and stuff. i'm not happy with how there turning out so the only way to make sure i am is by planning.
i need to make a timetable to follow, if not i just do nothing. i refuse to do nothing, i have to many ideas to do nothing.


i am feeling great. (I wont be saying that tomorrow morning.)

love, victoria. xxxxxxxxx



p.s dear world, i am in love with you. lots of love, me.

"I've hardly been outside my room in days,

'Cause I don't feel that I deserve the sunshine's rays.
The darkness helped until the whiskey wore away,
And it was then I realised the conscience never fades.
When you're young you have this image of your life,
That you'll be scrupulous and one day even make a wife.
And you make boundaries you'd never dream to cross,
And if you happen to, you wake completely lost."
missy higgins - the special two

strange. i have the dentist today. i'm quite scared for a change, i usually love it, but now i have a new dentist and i have to have my first ever filling. she said it was only a little one but i'm nervous. urgh. it's worse because it'll just be me and my younger sister, although she's 11, she hates the dentist and she ended up having some sort of crying thing last time, so i'm worried that's going to happen again. ahrjhgjfsd!! :(

i wish i was one of those people that had a way with words, the people that can write anything and the people that write books that you can't put down and wish you were a character in, or the people that write beautiful lyrics that you can relate too when you feel in a certain way. i mean, i do write the odd little poem, lyrics and so on but nothing that would impress people. i've never been a person that people are drawn to because of a certain thing about them. i'll just keep dreaming :D

i had a real weird dream last night, i can't even remember it properly now because my head is feeling heavy and hurting. atleast i have a cuppa tea. i think i'll go and make some toast in a minute and try thinking of stuff to take my mind off the dentist. hmmm. i hope everyones good and all, and yeah, i'll blog later after i've been through to the dentist :(

love, victoria XX

"we're not the same, dear, as we used to be

the seasons have changed and so have we,
there was little we cold say and even less that we could do,
to stop the ice from getting thinner under me and you

we buried our love in the wintery grave,
a lump in the snow was all that remained,
but we stayed by its side, as the days turned to weeks,
and the ice kept getting thinnner with every word that we'd speak

when the spring arrived, we were taken by suprise,
when the flows under our feet bled into the sea,
and nothing was left for you and me

we're not the same dear and it seems to me,
there's no where we can go with nothing underneath,
then it saddens me to say what we both knew was true,
the ice was getting thinner under me and you...

the ice was getting thinner under me and you."
death cab for cutie - the ice is getting thinner

i love that song.