"I wish i could bubble wrap my heart..."

Yesterdays photo.

Todays should be fun, day 100. How the hell i've gotten that far is crazy.

gonna go plot todays photo a bit. xxxxxxxxx

"but after conception your body lay cold,

and withered through autumn and you found yourself old
can you tell me why you have been so sad?"
death of interior designer - death cab for cutie

today was weird but nice. the atmosphere in stockport was horrible, couple everywhere and stuff and all valentines stuff, which doesn't bother me much, but the atmosphere was so, so strange and weird and yeah. i looked like i'd been stood up when waiting for sheridan, haaa. i think people actually thought i had been, either that or they were giving me sympathetic looks for another reason i'm not yet aware of. so anyway, today we met with will went in a few shops, then will parted and we remembered, i say we, sheridan remembered i needed cake decorating stuff so we went to asda to get some stuff. so then we went back to mine, watched the rest of hitch and made some chocolate chip biscuits. yum.

yesterday i had teh urge to bake a cake. so i made too, using food colouring made one pink and one blue. made icing for the pink one today so my sister charlotte put that on it and my little sisters decorated it. i'll decorate the blue one tomorrow i think.

mixtures.


dinosaur cake !!!!!


sheridans biscuits.


my biscuits.


so yeah i'm gonna stop now before i do rants about stupid stuff that no one wants to read about.

hope your all good!!

lots of love, victoria xxx

"if you got no kind words to say,

you should say nothing more at all,
if you got no kind words to say,
you should say nothing more at all,
if you got no kind words to say,
you should say nothing more at all."
the maccabees - no kind words

I don't know what i'd do without music. I know a lot of people say that, but i truly do mean it.
These 3 bands have had a really big influence on me: Boy Kill Boy, The Spinto Band and The Maccabees. I'm not sure what i'd do without their music. I mean, when i'm sad i listen to them, when i'm happy i listen to the, when i'm excited i listen to them, when i'm confused i listen to them. As you can see, a pattern is forming, no matter how i feel, i always listen to music. ALWAYS.

i'm not sure what i'm going to do without boy kill boy anymore. they were the first band i properly loved and would always go and see. i know a lot of people aren't fans of them so they when i mention them being my favourite band, i get a mix of reactions. that annoys me. i might not like their favourite band, but i don't slag them off when they mention them. it's weird thinking i wont see pete, kev, chris or shaz again. makes me feel sad. :(

also, through these bands, and others, i've met some amazing people. whether it's over forums, at gigs, or just randomly, and i don't think they realise how grateful i am for this. i've met so many people that are in my life now, and that i don't know what i'd do without, thanks to them. i have songs that have memories attached to them and this means even more to me, being able to remember things because of a song and being able to use lyrics to describe how i feel, i'm not good at that so it's nice to have something to relate too. music is a big part of my life and always will be.

i'm going to stop wittering on now, as it's making me sad haha! i hope everyones good.

lots of love, victoria!x

Insight.

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now.



10 – I'm glad we don't talk anymore.


9 – We're not as close as we used to be but i'm pretty glad of it, I've realised people i've met randomly over the last year, have been better friends to me in that time than you have. Your sarcastic, hurtful and annoy me at times. I actually can't wait to get away from you. I don't think i'm losing a friend at all, i'm getting rid of someone who causes me problems most of the time.


8 – I'm gutted we're probably going to go our seperate ways later this year, i don't feel like saying much more.


7 – I'm so glad i met you. seriously. i adore you, i love the fact you class us as your best friends and can feel yourself and say what you want around us because i love you for it. You mean a lot to me and i hope you don't go to a uni too far away! Your one of the best friends i have. I loved our stupid jokes when we interview people and i'm glad i met you because i can spend so much time with you!

6 - Our phone calls rock. I love you girly, i can talk to you about anything and we have stupid jokes and talk rubbish. You wont admit it, but i know you love my awful jokes. I love you girl. You better not leave me, we have uni plans.


5 – Over the past couple of years, we've all become closer. You and Harriet are the best older sisters i could ask for. You make me laugh, look out for me, take care of me and are there for me. I don't know what i'd do without you both. (all of these are pretty obvious. i don't care)

4 – I don't know you a lot yet but i enjoy talking to you :D You always cheer me up!

3 – I miss you nerdy

2 – I miss you, i'm sorry


1 - hm

NINE things about yourself.



9 – I'm indecisive.

8 – I'm a pretty good liar if needs be. I mean, i can lie about how i feel and i'm pretty convincing :D

7 - I wish more than anything, i had a musical talent, or just any talent of some sort.


6 – I wish i could sing.


5 – I work myself up really easily, over small things most of the time.

4 – I never know what to do when i recieve compliments.


3 – I hate being put on the spot. I can read fine but if made too read out infront of people, i get nervous and choke on my words, i hate it.

2 – I love quoting lyrics and well, quotes. Seriously. I don't know what i'd do if i didn't! I use lyrics to describe how i'm feeling most of the time.


1 – I find it really hard to let go of things. Wether it's a bus ticket, text, conversation, photograph, anything like that. I can't let go of it.




EIGHT of your favourite bands/singers.



8 - Boy kill boy

7 – The spinto band

6 – The Maccabees

5 – Noah and the whale

4 – Josh Weller

3 – The answering machine

2 – The futureheads

1 – The enemy


SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot.



7 – My hair looks a mess as usual.


6 - Music

5 – Conversations

4 – Regrets

3 – Friends

2 - Family

1 - Work



SIX things you do before you fall asleep.



6 – Read (most of the time)

5 – Think


4 – Think some more


3 - Text someone most likely


2 - Get into pjs.

1 – Make sure stuff is in place for the next day.



FIVE people who mean a lot at the moment.



5 - Mary

4 - Von

3 - Sheridan

2 – Mum

1 – Charlotte, Harriet and the rest of my family.


FOUR things you see right now.



4 - Sequins

3 – Phone

2 - Weird teddy

1 - Headband thing


THREE songs that you listen to often.


(at the moment...)
3 – Love story - taylor swift (I know i know, but it's catchy as hell.)

2 – Chairlift - Bruises

1 – Beyoncé - Broken-hearted (girl it might be at the end, i can't remember)


TWO things you want to do before you die.



2 – Make my family proud.


1 – Find my true love.



ONE confession

1 – I think over things too much and never let stupid little things go. I hate losing people/things and all that jazz.

"i walk the boards alone tonight and try to fill this empty space inside my chest

i took atlantic home tonight and every neon light, and sign, spelt out your name
and every morning that i wake
i make a point to check the date incase i slept an extra day
i've crossed so many numbers out
but every time i count them there are so much more"
dave melillo - sam's song

So i've not blogged properly for a good few days. nothing amazing has been happening. everything is just same old and dull to be honest. i'm slowly getting myself into a routine which is a good thing because i get stuff done easier now. well, within reason.

hmmmm. i have work to do but well, work is never appealing. ever. i've done some already anyway, i just need to finish this last part. i'll give you a quick summary of the last few days.

friday i didn't do anything exciting as per. infact i don't even remember what i did...hmmm.

yesterday i went into stockport and manchester with sheridan. we both had to get some photos printed for our portfolios, i got 36 done for £9.90. i think there's 36, i may have miscounted. now i need to actually put my portfolio together. meh. but yeah, we went put sorted that out, went into superdrug to see will, didn't cause he was on till, went into town, sheridan bought some trousers and a skirt and then i went and got my sister, charlottes camera sorted and then into the art cafe for a little tea drinking/relaxing/telling of the bad jokes time. it was nice. then we went back into stockport picked up our prints and both went our serperate ways. oh my god. i've also been learning if i were a boy by beyoncé on keyboard. it's so fun! and i learnt the chorus of rihannas disturbia. easypeasy that chorus ahah.

today i haven't done much, it's been a nice day really, i've just relaxed. although when i was doing my 365 photo, it started to snow!! i love snow but it meant i had to put a tea towel over my camera and i was also running in and out drinking some of my tea to try and keep warm. not fun. it's like 3'c or something according too bbc weather forecast. nice eh? ha. so now i'm doing bits of my history, the odd job for my mum and listening to music. hmmmm, so much random stuff in my head right now!

so i'm going to do some more work now so i can relax for the rest of tonight. my deadlines thursday. wish me luck.

love, victoria.

hmmmmm

Dear February, Be nice to me please. Love, Victoria.

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