"let me hold you for the last time,

it's the last chance to feel again,
but you broke me now i can't feel anything...
when i love you,
it's so untrue,
i can't even convince myself,
when i'm speaking,
it's the voice of someone else."
james morrison - broken strings

i've been listening to airport by the spinto band since sunday, when lisa sent it me (thanksthankss!!!) on repeat, to and from school and then again later on when i'm sat messing on the computer. i can't stop listening to it at all, it makes me excited and sad all at once! the thought of seeing the spinto band again in less than a month makes me like o.o It's not sunk in properly yet, i'm so freakin' excited!

hmmm. i've been writing this blog for abotu 30 minutes now, i stopped whilst i was looking at photos...so back to this blog anyway.

i've just been reading some postsecrets that are on flickr. funnily enough a lot link to people not being able to say what they want to someone and always regretting it. or doing something wrong and wishing they could go back. it's sad how we can't be honest to the people that mean most to us when we really need to be. but then i guess that's what some people do to you, make it hard for you too tell them how you feel honestly. it does make me wonder though, as you get older does it become easier for you to be more honest? or is it easier to hide things from people or lie to people? and as for doing things wrong and wishing you could go back, i think we're meant to have times like that because if your in the same situation again, you know this time that you'll regret it in the future, we need to learn more from our mistakes instead of just regretting them and wondering what it'd be like if you hadn't done/said that...(i do that all the time but i think now i'm learning from it, finally)

I think i've blabbered on enough for tonight. i feel sorry for anyone that reads my blogs, sometimes i just have to rant on here because if not it'll all be floating round my head for a while and it'll mean more day dreaming for me. i can't wait for it to be light again for longer.

i hope everyones good and that your all taking care of yourselves!

love, victoria